Day Fifty Five

OK. Well, I couldn't pull it off today. Couldn't go 13 minutes, that is. Did 11 minutes and walked for 1. Then ran 2 more and walked 1. Same routine on the way back home. Must a mental thing with me. If I feel the pressure of expectations, ie. run 13 minutes and walk 2 minutes, I wimp out or something. If there is no expectation to go a specific time, no problem. Hmmmm. What the hell?
When I was a youngster in school I had the same problem. On a test I would freeze up,I couldn't think. Nothing. I would get real nervous and pretty much shut down mentally. That is the biggest reason I was a C student. I feel any pressure, real or imagined, and forget it. This is also the reason I gave up college. I can do the work but couldn't handle the exams.
At work I sometimes feel stress or pressure when it gets busy. But I keep plugging away, although I do feel it in my neck and shoulders. I don't freeze up or anything like that. I think it's because it usually happens quickly with no warning, so there's no time to think about it.
Anyway, I'll try again Wednesday. Tomorrow I'll go for a bicycle ride. See if the kids want to get a little exercise. Will run for beer. Later